So, MissUpbeatAndPositive had a minor nervous breakdown tonight. (That’s me. I know. It’s hard to believe, but just go with it for now.) Since Bill was laid off, I’ve tried my darnedest to view this in a positive light. I’ve succeeded mostly, but as the days wear on and the jobs don’t come in, I’ve had my moments of panic. My method of dealing with them has been to stuff them way, way down and tell myself things will be okay.
But moments like that have a way of popping out of their nice little boxes and hitting you all at once. Which is exactly what happened to me earlier. All of a sudden, I realized Bill doesn’t have a job. Let me repeat - Bill. does. not. haVE. A! JOB!! Oh holy night, what are we going to do? What’s our contingency plan? WHAT ARE WE DOING?!? WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN?!? And poor Mr. Bill, he was caught in the midst of this chaos with a look much like a deer caught in headlights.
He didn’t handle it as well as he maybe could have, but that’s okay. A shouting match, a phone call to D and a few teary apologies later, and we’re okay again. (Okay, so Mr. Bill didn’t actually get teary, but let’s pretend he did. It makes me feel less like a total wuss.) We discussed our contingency plan again, and we decided it’s a good’un. We’re going to be okay. End of breakdown.
But all of that got me to thinking about just how goshdarned lucky I am. First, we’ve been able to rely on a lovely severance package which has kept our financial issues to a minimum. Lots of people sure can’t say the same. Second, we’ve got a very doable “last resort” plan that isn’t going to involve much sacrifice at all really. Another thing lots of people can’t say. We also have each other, and while neither of us is perfect, we’ve both been there for each other through all of this. I’m not even the least bit concerned that my marriage is in crisis. Our children are happy and healthy, if a little non-plussed about yet another move. We have the most supportive friends and family on the planet.
All in all, I’d say I’m one lucky girl. What do you think?
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